如此也好                                                                                “姑娘，您能回來(lái)真的是……太好了嗚嗚嗚嗚……”                                                                                沈鸞嘆氣：“怎么又哭了呢，太傷眼睛，趕緊擦擦，我這一趟也沒(méi)受什么苦，還給你帶了個(gè)姑爺回來(lái)，不算虧。”                                                                                “是秦將軍嗎？可是秦將軍早就娶了姑娘。”                                                                                “所以也不在乎再娶一次。”                                                                                沈鸞拍了拍柔軟的床榻，忽然有種想要上去滾一滾的沖動(dòng)。                                                                                一旁紫煙看了一會(huì)兒，扁了扁嘴：“姑娘，你想滾一滾就滾吧，這個(gè)床你好久沒(méi)有在上面滾過(guò)了嗚嗚嗚嗚……”                                                                                沈鸞：“……”                                                                                雖然覺(jué)得有些好笑，她還是遵從本心，一下子撲上去抱著軟枕來(lái)回翻滾，心里某個(gè)地方有種踏實(shí)的滿足感溢出來(lái)。                                                                                紫煙在旁邊看著默默地流淚，一邊哭一邊給沈鸞把裙角整理好，又能看到姑娘在床上滾來(lái)滾去了，真好嗚嗚嗚。                                                                                ……                                    ．c                                                                                秦戈從沈家離開(kāi)的時(shí)候，府外那些官差一個(gè)都沒(méi)走，見(jiàn)著他出來(lái)，立刻有人上前：“將軍，皇上還在宮里等您呢。”                                                                                秦戈只要離開(kāi)沈鸞的視線，臉上的表情就與溫和毫無(wú)關(guān)系，常年在軍中浴血廝殺，不怒自威，讓人都不敢正眼去看。                                                                                他也沒(méi)反對(duì)，徑直往皇城的方向去。                                                                                御書(shū)房，外面太監(jiān)進(jìn)來(lái)通傳說(shuō)定北將軍覲見(jiàn)的時(shí)候，里面凝滯的氣氛總算出現(xiàn)了松動(dòng)。                                                                                沅凌面無(wú)表情地宣他進(jìn)來(lái)，不一會(huì)兒，秦戈大步入內(nèi)，高聲參見(jiàn)。                                                                                “愛(ài)卿免禮。”                                                                                沅凌的聲音有些硬邦邦的，“愛(ài)卿終于肯回來(lái)見(jiàn)見(jiàn)朕了？朕還以為，要見(jiàn)到你不知要到什么時(shí)候。”                                                                                “微臣戰(zhàn)后受傷，不欲讓皇上擔(dān)憂，故想尋一個(gè)山清水秀的地方自生自滅，免得動(dòng)搖軍心。”                                                                                “那你如今傷又好了？”                                                                                “托皇上洪福，微臣養(yǎng)傷時(shí)遇見(jiàn)了仙女轉(zhuǎn)世，將微臣的傷都治好了。”                                                                                他面不改色地信口胡說(shuō)，沅凌胸口劇烈起伏，后槽牙咬出咯吱咯吱的動(dòng)靜，嚇得旁邊伺候的太監(jiān)心都要停了。                                                                                沅凌一揮手，將書(shū)房里除秦戈以外的所有人統(tǒng)統(tǒng)趕出去，等門(mén)關(guān)上，他臉色一變：“沈鸞真的沒(méi)死？”                                                                                秦戈的目光凝了凝，淡然道：“那不是沈鸞，她叫夏巒，只是與沈鸞長(zhǎng)得相似罷了。”                                                                                “你覺(jué)得這話朕會(huì)相信？”                                                                                “皇上明察，當(dāng)初被國(guó)朝送去祗族和親的德賢公主，已經(jīng)在半路病逝，棺槨也已送回晏城，她的死狀許多人都親眼目睹，微臣離開(kāi)的時(shí)候，她分明還是好好的。”                                                                                沅凌默然，半晌長(zhǎng)嘆一口氣：“你還是有怨氣的，朕知道，也是人之常情。”                                                                                “所以她不是沈鸞，她是一對(duì)老夫妻養(yǎng)大的孩子，微臣已經(jīng)與她成了親，沈家名義上將她認(rèn)作五姑娘，僅此而已。”                                                                                沅凌久久地看了他一會(huì)兒，忽而垂眸，“如此，也好。”                                                                                沈文韶十分出類(lèi)拔萃，卓爾不群，沈家在國(guó)朝地位日益穩(wěn)固，秦戈又是戰(zhàn)功赫赫，沈秦兩家聯(lián)姻，難免有人會(huì)擔(dān)心權(quán)勢(shì)集中在他們手里，但如果秦戈娶的只是個(gè)養(yǎng)女，似乎就沒(méi)什么關(guān)系。                                                                                “皇上，微臣在回來(lái)的路上，聽(tīng)聞皇上要立皇后，此乃國(guó)之幸事，那群老臣也該欣慰。”                                                                                沅凌抬起頭，有些欲言又止：“關(guān)于此事，朕正要與你細(xì)說(shuō)……”                                                                                書(shū)房門(mén)外，太監(jiān)細(xì)聲細(xì)氣的聲音傳進(jìn)來(lái)：“皇上，甄皇太妃來(lái)了，說(shuō)想見(jiàn)定北將軍。”                                                                                沅凌與秦戈對(duì)視了一眼，心里明白她是為何而來(lái)，“既然皇太妃要見(jiàn)你，你就先去見(jiàn)一見(jiàn)，至于其他的事情，稍后再說(shuō)也不遲。”                                                                                沅凌身為皇上去，心里卻還是將秦戈當(dāng)做從前教導(dǎo)自己武學(xué)的秦大哥，關(guān)于皇后一事，他竟有些逃避，能拖一會(huì)兒是一會(huì)兒。                                                                                秦戈察覺(jué)到他的意思也沒(méi)多說(shuō)什么，告退出去去見(jiàn)了甄皇太妃。                                                                                甄皇太妃一如秦戈記憶中絕色美麗，只是看得出比起從前明顯要衰老一些，沈鸞病逝的消息讓她纏綿病榻，一心求死，靠著無(wú)數(shù)貴重的藥材才救回來(lái)。                                                                                她見(jiàn)到秦戈立刻屏退下人，起身沖到秦戈面前，眼睛里閃爍著期待和渴望。                                                                                “秦戈，阿鸞還活著是不是？她還好好的是不是？”                                                                                甄皇太妃急于求證，聲音在不停地發(fā)抖。                                                                                秦戈能在沅凌面前瞎說(shuō)八道，但面對(duì)甄皇太妃，他的回答還是中規(guī)中矩：“她……中了毒，不記得從前過(guò)往，不過(guò)人還是好好的，與從前一樣樂(lè)觀開(kāi)朗。”                                                                                甄皇太妃捂著嘴，淚水奪眶而出。                                                                                多少次她想著就這樣隨阿鸞而去，她是個(gè)失敗的母親，從來(lái)沒(méi)為阿鸞做過(guò)些什么，沅凌既已登基，她也沒(méi)什么好顧慮，只是總有人不想她死，不停地告訴她只要活著，也許就能等到奇跡。                                                                                如今，奇跡真的出現(xiàn)，可那些罪阿鸞也沒(méi)有少受。                                                                                “她如今是沈家認(rèn)的五姑娘，不再受身份束縛，微臣會(huì)好好待她，太妃娘娘放心。”                                                                                甄皇太妃擦干凈眼淚，看著面前眼神堅(jiān)定的男子，他幫阿鸞報(bào)了仇，他違抗圣命銷(xiāo)聲匿跡去找阿鸞，若不是他，阿鸞沒(méi)那么容易被找到，不知道還要漂泊多久。                                                                                “我很放心，我也……沒(méi)有資格不放心……”                                                                                甄皇太妃的神情松塌下來(lái)，美目低垂，似是全然放下了什么，無(wú)欲無(wú)求。                                                                                阿鸞還活著，此生她能知道這個(gè)消息就已經(jīng)足夠，往后余生，她也不會(huì)再有別的念想。                                                                                “你是知曉阿鸞的身世，此事，就只當(dāng)從未有過(guò)，皇家富貴，卻也像是一個(gè)深淵，她該離得遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)的，越遠(yuǎn)越好……”                                                                                曾經(jīng)，甄皇太妃心底藏著隱隱的期待，盼著此生是否有機(jī)會(huì)能認(rèn)回阿鸞，在她被賜封公主的時(shí)候，甄皇太妃焦慮過(guò)，卻也竊喜過(guò)，可公主的頭銜給沈鸞帶來(lái)的，卻是滅頂之災(zāi)。                                                                                她什么都不再奢求，她不會(huì)再向沈鸞靠近半步，能遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)的，隱隱約約地聽(tīng)到她過(guò)得好，甄皇太妃，便此生無(wú)憾。                                                                                見(jiàn)過(guò)甄皇太妃之后，秦戈立刻出宮回家。                                                                                廣陽(yáng)侯府大門(mén)敞開(kāi)，下人翹首期盼，看到秦戈之后，風(fēng)一樣竄回去通傳：“回來(lái)了回來(lái)了！”